I am a self-professed master self-deprecator. As empathetic as I am, I have always been extremely hard on myself. I mainly blame society (I am, after all, a product of my environment), my desire to achieve unattainable perfection and a constant fear of failure. I’ve been thinking about it extensively lately and…fuck self-deprecation!
While contentment is scary shit, sometimes we have to credit ourselves for our victories. In all actuality, life has its ups and downs, but I love it anyway. The fact that we’re even alive is a fucking miracle (1 in 10 to the 2,685,000th power to be exact.) Why not cherish every moment we get to spend on earth? Being a self-deprecating dickweed makes it damn near impossible to love yourself. And I whole heartedly believe that we can’t expect anyone else to love us if we can’t love ourselves.
Instead of worrying about what I did in the unchangeable past or what idiotic move I might make in the unpredictable future, I’m going to live in the fucking moment. Doing so will make it possible to maximize happiness. And we all have way too many reasons to be happy that we take for granted on the reg. Think about the happiest moments of your life. You were totally living in the moment during them! Hell, my fondest memories are attending concerts, skateboarding (the feeling I get when landing a new trick is particularly orgasmic) and running marathons. They weren’t spent self-loathing while I tearfully watched celebrities live the life I desire on TMZ.
A wise man named Abe Lincoln once said, “Most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be.” That bastard was definitely onto something. Happiness is a mindset that we’re all capable of achieving. Life is all about perspective and we ultimately create our own destiny. So from now on, fuck self-deprecation. I love myself and I’m going to do whatever it takes to constantly remember that.
(P.S. I re-read this article meticulously 37 times before feeling confident enough to post it. This is obviously a work in progress, but at least I am self-aware and determined to improve.) #fuckthehaters